I woke up this morning and felt like I had drunk 27 litres of crap wine..or maybe I had bad flu.. or maybe erregehrgh quick! The bathroom.....

I have already been sick over 10 times!!! IS this morning sickness! Does it start really violently and then calm down or something? Maybe I have food poisoning. It is not just being sick but the nausea is oppressive, I am green as a foul murky stagnated pond. I have motion sickness and if I move my head everything spins and then I am sick again! I remember feeling a bit like this when I was 9 years old and had bad flu. I was in and out of hospital. I could not move my head or walk without being sick - snap! I could not look at a picture of food, or food itself - snap! The easiest thing was to lay still, not speak, not listen or hear anything and try to be as comatose as possible until I got better...hmmm.

Oh well, looks like morning sickness. Hopefully it bursts out and then clams down. 50% to 80% of women have morning sickness so I am among billions of women here and must not be a wuss.

So it is now the 26th July and I am fiveish weeks preggos. We are on our way up to Edmonton as we are both taking part in the Tour de L'Alberta - a cyclosportive north of the city. I was joining Bug on the 160k ride but due to the summer heat I am going to be careful and just be steady on the 100k ride instead.

So we have had our news settle in now and you know what? Bug was great, he was brill. He said wow and that one is ok, it will not change our lives negatively. We can take junior hiking with us in one of those baby rucksacks and it will be fine. I love this man :)

I have told my friend Lizzy about being pregs and she started her morning sickness at 6 weeks on the dot. I very much doubt I will be someone who is lucky enough not to get MS, I was sick even on the pill!. I am expecting it and have a list of things to cope with it. Lizzy swore by white seedless grapes and I read that if you feel nauseous that means you are hungry. I have noticed my appetite decreasing quite dramatically in the past few days tho so maybe I will escape it???

So we do our rides. Bug is back first in his race and I did a steady 3 1/2 hours - that's ok I guess, I am pregnant! I avoided some goons crashing - mostly triathletes who just cannot ride in groups doh!

Speaking of triathlons. I had pulled out of the Calgary 1/2 Ironman before I found out I was pregnant. I was being treated for painful hip bursitus so not allowed to run. I have been forwarded to next years entry...I will have only 4/5 months to get fit again after junior arrives!

I really hope that I can emulate Paula Radcliffe and keep training until birth. Only high risk pregnancies have restrictions. Doubt I fall into that category.

So I open the pack and there are actually 2 tests inside.

I may be a little too soon on this test.

Immediately I see 2 lines in each box....this means OH!

I pee on another stick....2 lines OMG!

I get in the car and drive to 2 more pharmacies and buy another 8 sticks.

By the end of my pee fest I have 9 positive and 1 negative!! (The negative one was half price)

I have to sit down for a long time to let it sink in. How do I feel about this? Well not suprisingly mixed. I am stressed about poor Bug first. I don't want to 'burden' him with an out of work nearly wife and child, he has a lot on his plate with his job...plus he is a planner and this is not planned. However, I do feel like this is right and I am ready. I am 33 years old and perfectly capable of being very good at this, plus totally chuffed and suprised that we did this naturally.

My next thought is my life...'I will have to give up running and cycling and spontaneous trips, I have ruined everything waaah I will get fat....

Then I think oh wow a baby, a family!!!!

And so on for about 8 hours

So I did get the stick the next day but I was not ready to face it. I hid it in the bathroom at the back of the bottom draw under the QTips.

Last night I am in bed and Bug (Richard) is in the bathroom and he needs a QTIP!!!

Shit! I freeze in bed as I here him opening the draws and rummaging around in each of them.

Then I hear 'Mini..why have you got a pregnancy test' and he comes straight into the room. I cannot believe he found it!! I mean I never want to be secretive from him or deceitful but I would like to sit down and have a chat about it first. Even Bridget Jones managed this bit better than me.

I just said the truth..that my period has still not come and I am a bit worried.

Bug seems fine and falls straight to sleep! I lie there for hours thinking uh oh no no no.

I realise that this makes me sound like some irresponsible brat. Well, I am too old to be a brat but having just moved here I am trying to get my freelance career off the ground. Now if I get pregnant I do ruin not only my career but our income. I love my work in innovation and design and it is going to be hard to find that niche as Calgary is definately not the heart of Canada's innovation and design industry.

I have got friends who have had the hell of IVF rounds before their babies have come and some still have not been lucky, sadly some never will. I guess if I was to be suddenly, unexpectedtly pregnant I would feel a bit guilty and well yes, irresponsible. However, we have a solid relationship so whatever the outcome is it will be fine.

Something started bothering me this week.

I haven't had a period for ummm....6 weeks.

I have endometrosis so that is not too odd a thing, plus I have only had a couple of periods this year. I had a mirena coil removed just before we emigrated from the UK to Canada. I hated that coil it made me turn into a chunky slugish pile of yuk.

Even so, the operation (laproscopy) I had before the coil was put in was a success I still had gyni probs and issues so I couldn't possibly just get pregnant.....could I?

Tomorrow I will visit the pharmacy and get a stick to pee on. I am sure I coudln't be.

OOO Canada !!

The O is in O Canada for a reason I guess as junior was conceived on Canada Day! Little did I realise I was instantly 2 weeks pregnant at that point! (Is a bit odd to back date a preg)

But enough of that, we went off on a little cycling jaunt for the reminder of the week. We stayed 2 hours away in Lake Louise at the Chateau - it must be the ugliest building ever built in such a beautiful setting.

Cycled the Bow Valley Parkway which is the back route in between Lake Louise and Banff. I was really expecting to see a bear on this ride but no bears appeared. The ride was pretty easy, only did around 70k and had a nice meal with wine that night at Deer Lodge which is the hotel behind the Chateau.

(Stunning eh? Oh and that is Crowfoot Glacier behind Bug)

The next day we cycled 160k of the Icefields '10 switzerlands in one' Parkway. It links Lake Louise to Jasper which is 250k to the north...Okay this road puts the O into OCanada! O in the beauty of the mountains, glaciers and blue lakes that line the parkway to the O of pain my mouth formed in the first 25k climb and the Bow summit climb. This ride had less elevation gain than last weeks ride of the Highwood Pass in Kananaskis - the highest road in North America BUT Bow summit from north to south was a brick sucker. Richard make it fun (not) by easily cycling up ahead, stopping, stretching, resting and then hiding in a bush to take a photo of me as I squeaked past.

We did get to see a bear and it's cubs that day on the summit. They were about 20 metres from the road and calmly eyeing us. Did not stay for long but they seemed so calm that we did stop on the road to take a picture.

Anyway, how cool that junior has already been on 2 excellent bike rides and I don't even know it yet.