Scan! Week 19! The ..what ifs....

We saw the babinos again this week!

They looked ALOT larger than 7 weeks ago, how amazing that in just weeks we can develop so much of a little human!

I was tres nervous before this test. At this one alot of problems can be detected and I know 3 couples who have had terrible experiences at this scan. I have been abusing my body for months and have been stressing about dehydrating them into little shrivelled prunes.

Bug holds my hand the whole time and what starts off tight with stress soon relaxes as the first one - twin A measures up perfectly!!! 'A' was very still at the last scan, but here 'it' is moving around, flexing elbows, opening and closing little hands...everything looks good with twin A..then twin B. Twin B is ever so slightly smaller than A but still measured up very well for twins at 19 weeks and everything looks great. in fact the doctor is so fine about the outcome of the scan that he does not even want to see us!

(BTW we want the sexes to be a suprise! nah nah!)

The relief is immense. Being in the room and seeing them again makes us think even more how dreadful it must of been to be told that something may be wrong. One of my best friends has had this happen with and had to undergo blood tests, whether to decide on an anmio test (they didn't) and then sit it out and wait until her baby was born.

Their baby was perfect by the way. The most beautiful baby girl ever produced - honestly she is already a stunner like her mum and absolutely gorge.

Bug asks me what we would done if one or both was downs or worse...I cannot honestly say, nor can he. I do not think anyone can until they are in that situation. I was suprised to read a UK report on down's only last week that stated 90% of women diagnosed with a downs pregnancy have a termination. I was very suprised and would of expected the figure to be 50%.

I have a cousin with learning difficulties. She has Williams syndrome and is 25 but very tiny and lovely. She has had a totally normal upbringing, treated and loved the same as her brothers and sisters. She went to 'normal' school for years (but cannot read or write), she is the most socialable person that I know and can talk to anyone. Our entire family love Mo to bits and she makes us laugh with things she gets up to.

I guess my point is that I find it hard to imagine that any parent could love a 'special' child less than a normal one. It makes me think about when I found out I was having twins and I was worried that I would love them unequally. It took me weeks to get to a point where I knew that I love them the same.

People that have a sad diagnosis often have to make a very fast desicion and do not have months to think about it and change their minds.

I also know that good health does not stop at birth! We will have years and years making sure they are well physically and mentally. (and each other!)

HG is back but the 13 week scan was amazing

(I look cute from the side)

(But really spooky from the front rah!)

Really bad HG over the next 11 days darn it!

I am vomiting lots of blood again and have turned yellow skinned! For some reason I do not want to go to hospital. I have to sleep in a separate bed from bug as even his smell makes me sick. Now I know I am ill as he actually has NO SCENT! I have always thought that he is like the scentless Grenouille in the book Perfume but without the murderous villan bit.

However, a good thing in this time, a great thing was our 13 week scan. It feels like a long time ago that I last saw them both and I was very suprised at what we both saw today. No, don't worry it is not triplets! They were moving, dancing in fact. I did not expect this as I have only seen static pictures before. They looked like teeny tiny babies as well with lovely cute face profiles. We were gobsmacked. We saw tiny feet and long legs it was amazing!

The point of the 13 weeks scan is to see if there is a chance that the fetus could have downs syndrome or another chromosonal problem. They measure the thickness on the back of the babies neck and also take your blood. With the combined data from both tests they can give you a statistic on the likelyhood of your baby having downs.

As our is a twin preg we could not have the blood test as statistical data so we were just given the nuchal test to measure the back of the neck. One of the juniors kept dancing away in there and the sonographer took a very long time to capture it's neck! One was very well behaved and pretty still. Guess who takes after who hmmm?

The outcome of the test was a 1 in 1646 chance of twin B have downs and a 1 in 455 chance of twin A. That is over average for my age and the doctors said it was a positively good result and did not recommend any further test! Yippeeeeee I feel 10 stone lighter!

Seeing them also makes HG easier to cope with. I cannot feel the junior yet and I do not look pregnant, I just feel ill so to see two moving active babies is a massive joy and boost.